Paula Baby

God I miss you today i fell that you have been with me all day you memory feels so fresh in my memory like it was just a month ago. I keep looking for you in a crowd,I run after someone that looks like you I cry when I see you face in my dreams when I do dream. Baby its been over six years and I feel like it was yesterday maybe because it was the 6th anversity of Opertation Enduring Feedom yesterday I dont know I have no answers I wish I did.

I have this crush on this girl and would love to spend the rest of my life with her if things work out. She different from you. but she also have alot in common like the long hair the ass and the breast. The good news is that you don't look the same which means that I have accepted that the terrorist have taken you from me however she was this increable smile.

I tend to think of her alot like I use to think of you back in biology class so many years ago. It's funny and a good thing like i told you I was not even suppose to be in that class. But when I saw your eyes and your smile I knew that I was suppose to me there. I know that I have not moved on but rather I have found someone different to date.

The one thing that scares me is that I know the terrosits will attack again and I know I can't handle losing someone again. I know that the remote possibility of that happening but It feels like it's a chance that I dont want to take however I know that i need to take the challage and hopefull have her fall in love with me and with any luck and angels we will grow old in each others arms like you and I were suppose to.

Baby I will always love you and I miss you every day, I know that we will be together oneday

Love

Mark