9/11/07

I felt strange this year also like it was not real. Maybe it was that the weather was different maybe I have been able to heal and fell better. They do say that times heals all maybe it is true. Maybe I have come to terms with my past and finally understand that paula would want me to be happy and not so much move on. But certainly fine someone that will love me for my faults and would allow me to love them for theres. I just want to be able to find that second person who I can see spending the rest of my life with. I getting to old for these loney bars and going home alone to my despair.